I don’t feel like writing anymore. I’m exhausted, angry, disappointed, depressed, apprehensive.
Exhausted because I’ve been reading too much. Angry at all the authors. Disappointed in Muslims. Depressed at us being the stupidest people on the face of this planet. Apprehensive as to whether I should share my research or not.
What have I been reading? History. Of Muslims. Books, internet, etc.
Why am I angry at the authors? Because all these authors write to try and twist history in favor of their motives. But try as they might, truth will not hide!
Why am I disappointed in Muslims? Because of their concepts. Because of their gullibility to believe anything fed to them about religion. Because of their efforts to try and stain their Prophet’s image so they can hide their own discrepancies and mistakes. Because of their intolerance to ideas opposing those that were fed to them from the beginning. Because of their inability to see right from wrong. Allah is going to be real happy with us: I made a Prophet that is the Pride of all Creation and you destroyed his image to make him look like some freak from a terrorist movie? Bravo! [Nauzobillah!]
Why am I depressed? Because we are not able to see that the reasons above are leading to our downfall. Our own shortcomings. Our stupid concepts. Why are we complaining about Danish cartoons, when we are the ones making our Prophet look like a cartoon (nauzobillah) in the first place? We complain and condemn about Gaza and Iraq and the deaths of our Muslim “brothers”, but when it comes to practical stuff, we go to the bathroom? My advice: Cut the bullshit and hypocrisy! I’m sick of it.
Why am I apprehensive? Because I’m having second, third, fourth,…., infinity-th thoughts about sharing what I’ve found out. All my previous posts will be nothing compared to this. If the previous posts knocked your breath out, this is going to give you a heart attack and send you into a coma! And I don’t think people will be able to handle them so I’ve decided not to share them. I’ll carry the burden alone and I’m quite capable of it. For the time being, at least.
Till a day or so ago, I thought nothing anyone could do would matter to me. But I was wrong. If I write what I know, I’ll lose. I’ll lose a lot!
But then again:
“Speaking the truth and loosing is better than speaking a lie and winning!” – Hazrat Ali (A.S.)
I’m torn between feelings. How many people will the truth destroy?
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Do tell me the meanings and implications of the following:
Rab-bil-Aalameen! (1:1)
and
Rehmat-ul-Lil-Aalameen. (21:107)
What do they mean? And what do they imply?
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