She knows now. We’re fine.
Won’t be talking for a while, need to get my head straightened out.
Cigs help. 
I asked my friend to come over last night to give me some company. Went out to distribute cards of his friend’s sister’s wedding, smoked four cigs in the span of an hour and then had a late night (after midnight) dinner at a local fast food restaurant. First full meal in days, had to force most of it down though. 
Got some ice-cream for my sister and then went back home.
Put on Pineapple Express. It’s a funny movie but didn’t enjoy it much.
We both went to the roof and I smoked three consecutive Dunhill Lights for the first time in my life. Usually, one is more than enough to make me go tuuunnnnn and three are more than enough to make me puke my insides out. But nothing happened last night.
Felt better, came down, finished the movie. Friend went back home, I went to sleep after four.
Woke up at ten, usual habit, but forced myself to go to sleep again. Woke up at noon and here I am.
Feeling better now, hope to go out today too.
Yet there’s a thread running in the background. Have to kill it. Where’s the goddamn Task Manager?
This is not me. I never friggin pictured myself this way!
For God’s sake, I…AM…SAWJ!
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@Pinky: Khwar aunty, kitna yaad hai tumhein!
@noman: About me man.
you want to say that it was not one-sided and just because she is elder and don’t follow your sect so she is depressed that she cant have you? something like that?
No dude, she was feeling bad because I was. Telling her was a big mistake I made.
no I asked whether it was one sided only or from both side? does she feel same about you?
One sided, I believe.
u shud confirm it dude. If she likes u too then atleast it wud give you feeling tht she also had same feeling but cant materialize it. right?
Kya faida? Even if she does, I won’t force her to tell me.
dil ko behlana ko ghalib ye kyal acha hay
bhai meray. she is depressed for heself. Hira S was right. she’s just showing sympathy for you because she is already committed with one. Most probably she likes that guy too so definitely your entry would have made her restless. Since you are a friend so she would be feeling bad that she can not give you anything in return.
bhai, move on. I personally think you did not do right by writing everything here on a public blog. It’s like making tamasha of everything. I think she would not be feeling good about this as well. what if the other guy reads everything? I think you should removed these posts.
best of luck and keep moving!
She’s better now. I never intended to make tamasha of anything, just wanted to get a huge load off my chest that was burying me. The other guy won’t read this. The only mistake I made was telling her about it man.
bhayi noman amin….
first u ask him loads of question…n sort of force him to confide in u…then u tell him k its not right to write everything on blog…i mean thora ziada nai ho gaya
aur wajahat jafri, uncle ho gay tum khud…u r atleast 3 months older than me
How did you know that?
loser, i m quite sure i am 22, n i have a pretty shrewd idea abt my date of birth…n since u r 22 and a gemini, so as per my brand of logic, it automatically follows that u ARE around 3 months older than me……i know what u would say ,”STALKER”
Oh no, I’ll say “Khwaar!”
ye hota kia hai, sounds like a gaali to me….jo bhi hai tum khud ho gay
Khwaar means “ziyada tension lenay wala” in your case.
@Pinky eh I did not force him. Did I? He himself revealed everything in form of blog posts :-). Ab he’s not a kid!
i must be getting blind in my old age….i thought i saw at least one question in ur every msg…so i thought u were interviewing him…sorry, my bad….but lets just bury the matter, i dont think he likes constant reminder of that episode
tata
Easier said than done.
Abhee quit kerna acha hai, agay ja ker it will get very hard.
Turst me. I have seen people. they regret what they have done.
Sure, yeah.
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